A Chat with Grace Asbury
Finding Catharsis through Music: Grace Asbury's Journey
In the episode, Grace Asbury, a 25-year old Atlanta native and current Nashville resident, talks about her musical journey and how she harnesses her personal experiences to inspire her songwriting. Grace opens up about her brother's suicide and how it has shaped her emotionally and creatively. As an artist, she aims to touch people with her songwriting and believes music holds a cathartic power in life. The upcoming year is an exciting one for Grace, with a musical reset and a series of singles set to be released, marking a new path in her career.
00:05 The Power of Music and Introduction
01:00 Introducing the Host and the Podcast
01:39 Grace Asbury: A Rising Star
03:32 The Journey to Nashville
06:06 Grace's Personal Life and Collaborations
06:40 The Struggles and Triumphs of Making it in Nashville
08:07 The Art of Co-Writing and Networking
14:35 Grace's Unique Sound and Musical Reset
18:27 Songwriting: Personal Experiences and Imaginative Storytelling
20:09 Dealing with Grief: A Personal Story
22:14 The Impact of Loss on Family Dynamics
23:23 Remembering a Loved One: Sam's Legacy
27:28 The Power of Music in Processing Grief
31:47 The Role of Gratitude in Healing
36:52 The Importance of Family Support
38:01 Looking Forward: Upcoming Music Releases
38:54 Closing Remarks and Performance
Transcript
I mean, I think music is the most cathartic thing in this
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:world And if you really think about
it, if you took music out of our just
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:everyday life, if music didn't exist,
it'd be the weirdest experience ever.
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:So it's just always in the background,
but then I think so many people I mean
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:That's why the biggest artists can do
what they do I mean you look at Taylor
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:Swift so many people think like feel that
they've lived her songs or they know her
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:or They help that have helped them through
things I think that's like the biggest
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:gift that we have as songwriters is
being able to Do that for people because
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:I, I always tell people when they're
like, what do you want out of this?
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:Like I want to impact people in a way that
they feel they can listen to my music and
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:it did something to them, whether it made
them happy, whether it made them laugh or
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:just like made them cry their eyes out.
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:Jason English (Host): Welcome to
Curious Goldfish, a podcast community
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:where music and curiosity come together
through interesting conversations
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:with the music makers of our world.
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:I'm your host, Jason English.
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:You can find Curious Goldfish and all the
major podcasts and social media platforms.
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:And of course we have all of our
content on our website, curiousgoldfish.
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:com.
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:It was really fun to see Grace Asbury
perform recently late on a Friday
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:night at Eddie's attic in Atlanta.
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:The 25 year old Atlanta native and
current Nashville resident showcased
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:her entire arsenal of talent from
her sweeping emotional vocals to her
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:clever creative songwriting with a lot
of personality and charm in between.
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:But what struck me most about that
night and from the conversation I
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:had with her for this episode Was
her sentiment and authenticity.
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:one hand, she is putting herself
out there, trying to be seen
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:and heard by whomever will give
her three and a half minutes.
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:You can see the ambition
and commitment in her eyes.
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:She wants it, whatever "it" is.
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:But there's more to her than
just being an ambitious singer.
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:The sentiment and authenticity was really
embodied by her storytelling and the
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:stories I heard before the show, waiting
for the doors to open from friends and
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:acquaintances who remember watching Grace
perform when she was in middle school.
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:You can tell they want her dreams
to come true as much as she does.
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:Maybe because of her talent, maybe because
of how tight knit her family is, or maybe
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:because of the nightmare they collectively
experienced four years ago with the
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:passing of one of her older brothers, Sam.
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:She talks about that
experience and sings us a song.
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:She penned shortly after the
tragedy, which is both inspirational
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:and heartbreaking, but beyond her
voice, beyond her catchy lyrics,
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:it's going to be the authenticity
grace has in her core that will help
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:her achieve what she and her close
network so desperately want for her.
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:Will she make it?
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:You never know in Nashville, but with her
talent, with her support system and with
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:that authenticity, my bet is she does.
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:I hope you feel the same after
listening to our conversation.
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:Here's Grace Asbury.
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:Let's dive in.
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:Hi, Grace.
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:Nice to meet you.
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:Nice
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:Grace Asbury: to meet you as well.
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:Thanks for having me.
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:Jason English (Host):
Well, thanks for your time.
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:Of course.
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:So you're in Atlanta for the weekend.
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:Anything going on this weekend in Atlanta?
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:Grace Asbury: I have a show
tomorrow at Eddie's attic at
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:9 15 PM and it's gonna be fun.
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:It's kind of, I haven't
had a show in a minute.
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:I have a lot of new stuff and I'm
excited to get to share that with people.
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:It's gonna be fun.
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:Jason English (Host): All right.
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:Well, Eddie's Attic is legendary.
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:What kind of set do you have planned?
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:Grace Asbury: So it's very much, I
have a little bit of my old stuff
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:sprinkled in there, but since being in
Nashville, I've had so many co writes.
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:So it's just kind of, and we're in like
this rebranding phase of my career.
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:So it's this whole kind of new vibe
that I'm bringing to the table.
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:So it's just a lot of.
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:Like, you know what, here's the new
stuff, here's me as a lot of these songs
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:you might be hearing in the next few
years, so I'm really excited about it.
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:It's going to be in very acoustic
listening room vibe and we're going to
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:have a good time and I have a couple
covers thrown in there so people are going
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:to know the words, but don't go there
thinking you're going to know my songs.
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:Jason English (Host): Right.
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:Well, that's kind of the point is to
get to know singer songwriters, right?
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:Have you, you, have you
played at Eddie's before?
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:Grace Asbury: I have.
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:I've played two times before.
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:One was with a full band.
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:Really fun.
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:Great, great energy.
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:And the second was just kind of a
broken down drummer and guitar player.
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:Not fully acoustic, but
like kind of acoustic.
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:So, that was really fun and
then I just, that was the show
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:I realized like, you know what?
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:It's more fun to play in this room
with a very stripped down vibe.
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:Yeah.
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:Jason English (Host): Yeah.
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:I get that.
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:So you grew up in Atlanta.
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:I think you've played, obviously you've
played Eddie's before, like you just said,
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:and I think you played Buckhead theater.
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:Grace Asbury: I had.
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:Jason English (Host): So what, what are
the top two venues you want to play in
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:the next five years here in Atlanta?
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:Yeah.
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:Yeah.
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:Yeah.
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:Oh my gosh,
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:Grace Asbury: That's a great question.
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:Jason English (Host): Tabernacle,
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:Grace Asbury: I know um
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:Jason English (Host): there's the Roxy,
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:Grace Asbury: Roxy is one.
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:I would think that would be really cool.
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:I would love to even play, I mean
this is ambitious, but like, it'd be
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:amazing if I got to like State Farm
and stuff like that, just good, growing
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:up, those are giant stadiums and
arenas, just being from Atlanta would
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:be, I've gone to so many sports and
things and concerts, I'm like, that'd
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:be amazing if I was in there, but yeah.
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:Jason English (Host): yeah.
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:No, that's good.
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:That's good.
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:Uh, how long have you lived in Nashville?
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:Grace Asbury: I moved last June.
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:So, pretty fresh.
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:Not even a year in yet, but it's been
a whirlwind since I've been there,
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:Jason English (Host): Yeah.
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:And you went to UGA?
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:Yes.
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:Uh, you grew up here.
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:You went to UGA Helder, you know?
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:Grace Asbury: I'm 25.
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:Jason English (Host): So you're 25.
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:All right.
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:All right.
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:So 25, I'm assuming single in Nashville.
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:Grace Asbury: I'm not single.
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:Jason English (Host): You're not single?
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:No,
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:Grace Asbury: I'm not.
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:I moved with my boyfriend actually.
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:Yeah, he's also my drummer.
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:So we're very tied in.
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:Jason English (Host): but the
collaboration's very good.
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:Grace Asbury: It is.
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:It's, um, he wasn't my drummer when
we started, or he wasn't my boyfriend
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:when we started playing together.
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:And then we just kind of hit it off and we
both made that leap together to go there.
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:And it's really nice because it's
a big move and it's kind of amazing
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:to have a support system there.
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:So it's been almost a
godsend to have him there.
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:Jason English (Host): So describe
to the audience life in Nashville
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:in your mid twenties trying to sort
of make it in the music industry.
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:I mean, is it exhilarating?
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:Is it is it everything in between?
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:Grace Asbury: I would say at first
it's a little like nerve wrecking.
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:Um, I'm a very outgoing person and so
it's fun to be there and meet people.
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:It's extremely different.
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:vibe, I guess, that
I've ever been used to.
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:Because I felt like in Atlanta
I was kind of a no man's land.
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:I was kind of doing
country music on my own.
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:And I'm a really competitive person.
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:So being in Nashville has kind of
like, upped my game a little bit.
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:Like, I have to prove myself.
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:I want to be here.
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:And it's been really, really fun,
but there's times where, you know,
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:my first couple of co writes,
I would walk out and be like,
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:I'm
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:Was that really all, am I good at this?
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:Like, was that stupid?
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:Cause you just, people write
so differently and I never
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:really co written with anybody.
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:And I didn't know how they were taking
me as an artist or as a writer.
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:And I was like, maybe they, but then
they asked if they wanted to do it again.
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:And I was like, okay, so they must want
me back and they must like me, but.
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:It is a little like messes with your
head a little bit and you have to
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:just kind of fight through it and
just be like, no, I, because I think
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:that's how it like weeds people out.
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:Like you either get the mentality
of I deserve to be here and I'm
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:going to prove it or you just get
kind of scared and pushed out.
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:So,
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:Jason English (Host): When you're
co writing with somebody, how do
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:you meet the other co writers?
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:How does that all come, come together?
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:So
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:Grace Asbury: so some, I do have a
manager who's put me in some rooms with
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:like a little bit bigger songwriters,
which is very nerve wracking.
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:Um, and then others are just
organic going to rounds throughout.
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:Cause there's like rounds all week
at different bars in Nashville and
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:you just go and they'll have like
every hour is like four different
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:writers and they play their songs.
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:And I've done a couple of those
since I've been in Nashville.
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:And you just kind of, if you hear
somebody that you're like, Oh, I
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:feel like we'd write well together.
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:I like what they do.
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:You just go up and, Hey, my name's Grace.
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:Like I'm in town.
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:I'm a country singer.
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:And then they're, they're like,
eh, don't want to, or they're
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:like, Oh yeah, here's my number.
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:Jason English (Host): Well, you
mentioned confidence earlier.
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:You've got to have confidence
to, to put yourself in that.
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:Situation.
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:Right.
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:So that, that, that says a lot.
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:I mean, that's half the battle, I
think, not just with probably with
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:songwriting and music, but also
with business or dating or whatever.
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:It's like,
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:Grace Asbury: hmm.
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:Jason English (Host): you kind of have to
fake it a little bit and probably extend
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:yourself and be like, I have to think
better or think more about myself than I
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:probably am to put in a situation where
you can probably have that opportunity.
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:Is that what you find?
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:Grace Asbury: finding?
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:Very, yeah.
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:I definitely, it's like kind of
staring fear straight in the face.
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:Cause my dad is like Mr.
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:Salesman.
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:So he is like no fear when it
comes to just walking up to people.
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:And I wish I had a
little bit more of that.
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:Because, and he's really
like trying to ignite me.
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:I have part of it.
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:But that's one of the biggest things in
Nashville that I've had to just like.
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:Push that wall down like break it down
because it's like you have to be totally
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:okay walking up to people and then being
I don't want to write with you or I don't
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:and because a lot of times they'll be like
oh yeah let's do it but it's like if you
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:just never ask people or try you're never
gonna make those like connections and make
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:your name known throughout the town like
even just walking up to the people that
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:run the rounds that can be a little nerve
wracking of being like hi I would love to
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:be a part of this like a lot of people are
like No, I don't want to do that and I was
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:kind of like I don't want it to be weird
And I finally was like, okay Like I'm just
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:gonna go say hello and say I would love
to be a part of it and it worked I'm like,
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:but it is it's just having the confidence
to be able to Go talk to people That's a
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:huge thing and a lot of people have talked
about that to me is like that kind of
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:separates people in Nashville too, like
if you're afraid to be like forward and
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:go talk to people and I was like, that's
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:the, some
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:Jason English (Host):
Well funny is that some
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:of the artists I've talked to talk to as
part of this podcast, I'm kind of shocked
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:at how insecure they are and how there's
not a, there's not a lot of confidence
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:Grace Asbury: you
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:Jason English (Host): and you know, and
so it's, yeah, it's a great point because.
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:You could be so talented in songwriting
and on an instrument, but there's sort
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:of the intangibles that you probably
need to kind of navigate and make it.
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:I think
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:Grace Asbury: kind of navigate.
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:being an artist
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:Is like the creative side really overtakes
and if you think about writers and stuff
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:we pull so much from whether they be
our insecurities or just personal life
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:or what's happened to us and You do
you're just like stuck in that creative
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:state and I feel like I've met I think
that's what really set like songwriters.
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:It's pretty okay To be
like that sometimes.
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:If you want to be an artist, that's when
you have to be able to kind of have that,
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:like, type A alpha in you a little bit.
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:You have to, like, I've talked to
a lot of people who have been like,
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:you have to believe that you have
something that other people don't have.
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:Which is very true, like, cause you
have to make people believe that too.
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:Like, I deserve to be here.
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:There's, there's a path for
me and I'm gonna prove it.
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:And so, I had somebody always tell me,
like, you need to have a chip on your
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:shoulder if you want to be an artist.
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:You gotta be, like, mad, like,
you gotta, things have had to
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:piss you off, and you have to be
like, no, I'm gonna go get this.
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:And, I kinda definitely have it,
I like looking at it more of the
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:way, cause somebody said, you have
to believe you're better than other
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:people, and I was like, I don't
believe that, I believe that I have
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:something that other people don't have.
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:I think it's a better way of
putting it rather than, I was like,
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:I think there's some extremely
talented people in Nashville.
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:Jason English (Host): Well, it's
also, it must be kind of frustrating
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:because the line, it's a thin line
between quote unquote making it and
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:then whatever not making it means.
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:I mean, sometimes someone, someone's happy
of just like being a local person that
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:does gigs just at the local bar tavern.
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:But you know, cause it must be
frustrating because there's a lot of
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:people that have quote unquote made it.
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:Grace Asbury: Yeah.
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:Like,
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:Jason English (Host): Like, let's be
honest, they're not that good, right?
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:And then some people that, again,
whatever definition of like making
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:it is, haven't done that yet.
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:And they're so freaking talented and you
just kind of wonder like, what is it?
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:You know?
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:Grace Asbury: I think it's so it is
because I mean trust me the amount of
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:times we've all like been around them
and just like People like this song like
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:it's so interesting, but I think it all
comes down to just the people you get
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:around you and your team and then what
do you have to offer and like I think a
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:lot of times it's not the better vocalist
It's not the better song It's something
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:about that person that people tap into
and they do a great job and they find
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:something Really specific and like and
they have their own style They have their
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:own branding kind of thing and they stand
out like I think Like for example, like
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:Lainey Wilson did a great job with that.
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:I love Lainey.
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:She's one of my favorite artists and
then You know who Megan Maroney is She
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:is She's gotten pretty big in Nashville.
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:I always she's this thing
called like emo cowgirl.
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:That's her vibe she I think sings
like kind of sadder country songs But I
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:respect the hell out of her and her team
because they've done a great job like
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:pushing her and marketing her in a way
like Nobody looks like her in country
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:music and she's done a great job at that.
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:And I think that's really It because it's
like there's so many talented people in
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:Nashville, and there's so many talented
songwriters and singers, but it's like
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:what's What's gonna be the thing in the
path that you take that nobody else?
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:Will be able to like get there before
you and I think that's One of the most
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:important things when you're trying to be
an artist Is like finding that and like
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:getting people around you that can help
hone in on that and I've really gathered
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:a team around me and we've With the new
songs that I have coming and I'm excited
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:because I feel like we're heading down a
path and it's like, all right, no female
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:in country is like hitting this right now.
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:So I'm excited.
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:Yeah.
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:Jason English (Host): Well, you
mentioned the reset earlier.
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:Tell us more about what
that actually entails.
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:Grace Asbury: So I did
have like three singles.
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:2019
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:to 2021 ish, I would say,
like all through COVID times.
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:And then we had an album
follow and that was awesome.
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:It was a great experience.
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:It was, the album was kind of all over
the place in my opinion, just because I
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:was younger and I was just writing like
a bunch of songs and I didn't really
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:have like an idea of what my path was.
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:And when I started to get a
band around me, I did, but we.
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:Unfortunately, we had added some
people on to that team who had added
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:a lot of fake numbers to my stuff.
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:So fake streams on Spotify,
fake stuff on Instagram.
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:And it, it hurt me cause a
lot of the social media places
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:started to really crack down.
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:They wanted to be really authentic.
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:So, I started to get like hidden,
blocked, and I had to delete
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:everything, start from scratch.
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:And so now We've made the ultimate
decision just to take everything
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:down so I could have like the best
opportunity of actually growing
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:and I was kind of in a place where
I didn't think it would hurt me.
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:So we were like, let's just
start from ground zero.
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:And I'm in this whole, and it's
really fun because it's kind of like.
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:A whole new life and like new energy and I
get to just put my next single out and be
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:like, this is my sound now and everything
that will follow will be similar and
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:all line into like the Grace Asbury sound
and people will know when they hear a
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:song like, oh, that's got to be her.
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:So
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:Jason English (Host): Well,
what is the Grace Asbury sound?
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:Grace Asbury: it's a great way.
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:That's a great question.
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:I asked, I told one of my friends
about it and she was like, I feel
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:like I just need to hear the song.
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:And then when I told her when
she heard the song, she was like,
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:Oh, I know what you're saying.
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:It's like a more gritty sound to
female country, like very, has
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:southern rock elements, the big
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:tones, guitars, you know, rock
heavy, big, really percussion based.
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:Um, and just has a little bit of
like the pop side in it, but not
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:the way you would hear it today.
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:I think the best way is like, just
like fierce grit coming at you.
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:I'm a big vocalist, so we use that
to my advantage and it's just, yeah.
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:And it's kind of the content for majority
of my stuff is not usually what you hear.
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:So I'm excited about that too.
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:You can hear it soon.
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:Jason English (Host): Yeah, that's good.
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:So kind of back to Nashville, what
you're doing now, sort of ahead of
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:the singles coming out and this reset,
are you gigging like every night?
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:Grace Asbury: I'm well
pretty much every night.
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:I'm in such like a connection based time.
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:So like every night I'm going out
meeting people Usually it's just
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:every weekday, which is kind of funny.
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:The weekends are my chill time because the
weekends is more just the touristy bars,
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:crazy
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:cover bands.
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:And I go out.
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:Monday through Friday, pretty much.
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:I go to all different rounds,
whether it's the listening room, or
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:Live Oak, or the local whiskey jam.
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:I just want my face to be seen.
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:Try to talk to people, meet people.
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:And it's just getting your face and your
name out there, and the more they see me.
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:I have a very specific look every
time I go out, so I've started to
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:be like, like I've seen you before.
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:I'm like, yep.
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:I've been here.
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:I've always had my cowboy hat on.
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:That's my go to.
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:And it's just That's the vibe, that's what
I do, and I've been playing, which is my
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:biggest thing right now, is getting in
those songwriting rounds, and I've done
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:about five or six of them now, so just
being out there and having my name out
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:there, so, and I think the goal is to get
more gigs this year, more like paid gigs
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:and stuff like that, but, um, right now
it's just kind of like being in the scene.
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:My dad likes to say, go
where the target market is,
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:Jason English (Host): is.
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:He's got, yes, he's got,
yeah, he's a sales guy.
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:That's
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:Grace Asbury: very much
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:Jason English (Host): so
where, what are your sources
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:of inspiration for songwriting?
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:I mean, some people may
say, well, she's 25.
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:What
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:There's no, you know, what has she
possibly experienced to, you know, to, to
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:lead to heartbreak songs or, or whatever.
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:But, you know, everybody
goes through shit.
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:Grace Asbury: right?
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:Jason English (Host): Yeah, what's,
what's your main source of inspiration for
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:songwriting or does it, does it depend?
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:Grace Asbury: for it?
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:Really, it kind of depends.
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:Some stuff is really personal.
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:Some, cause I, I have, I'm, I know
I'm young, I'm 25, got a lot more
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:life to live, hopefully, God willing.
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:But I have had a lot happen to me in my
life so far, and I've had a very blessed
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:life, but definitely have had challenges,
and then some of it is just ideas.
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:I might hear somebody talking and be
like, oh, that's an interesting, like,
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:concept, or, cause I think the most
fun songs are actually, the personal
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:songs come easy, in my opinion.
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:You feel it.
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:You write it and it's just like within
you, but I really like a song where
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:it's just you have to build a story.
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:those songs are fun because they're
challenging because it's like I'm that's
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:I didn't live that life but it's kind of
fun to step into that storyline and write
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:a song that people Can like literally
see in their minds when they're listening
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:to it, and I think as a songwriter you
know, you've been given a gift to be
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:able to put certain things into words
and melody and people are like, oh my
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and Whether or not I've lived it I'm
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:kind of speaking for maybe somebody
that has or I wrote a song that speaks
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:for them So it's that stuff's always
fun to me, but it's a mixture for sure
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:Jason English (Host): So you mentioned
you've, you've been through a lot.
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:Uh, you've experienced
a lot of grief, I guess.
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:Tell us about that.
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:Yes.
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:Grace Asbury: um, unfortunately, when
I was, It was actually the, um, It was
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:2020, so it was the four year mark.
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:On February 11th, so a few days ago.
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:Um, my brother took his own life,
which was really surprising.
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:I remember getting the
call and I was at UGA.
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:It was like driving back from my workout.
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:I remember the street I was on Macon
Highway and my dad called me and I was
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:going home the next day because my brother
was living with my parents at that time.
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:He just graduated from UGA it
was just like for six months, just
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:living while he made some money.
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:He had a great job at Northwestern
Mutual, was a financial
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:advisor and everyone loved him.
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:Like he was funny.
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:He was like the athlete in high
school, you know, just a great guy.
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:Like he's the funniest guy
I've ever known in my entire
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:life, like wittiest, hilarious.
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:And I got a call from my dad and he
was like, what are you doing right now?
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:I'm like driving back from my workout
and he's like, okay, um, are you, I was
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:like, I'm about to pull into my apartment,
I was living with my friends and he was
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:like, Sam like took his own life today.
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:I thought it was a joke.
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:I literally was like, that's not funny.
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:I don't know why you're saying that to me.
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:So, um, cause I was like, I think
the first thing he said when
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:he said Sam, I said Sam Asbury.
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:And he was like, yeah, and
he was so numb on the phone.
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:That's what I knew.
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:And he's like, I wish I was joking.
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:And it was just like, I
was in shock for a minute.
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:And luckily my best friend who I lived
with at the time, I like called her
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:and I was like, Hey, where are you?
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:And she knew right away
from my tone of my voice.
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:She's like, what's going on?
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:What's wrong?
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:And I was like, I just told her
and she stopped everything, like
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:drove home and got there, but it
was a really, it was a whirlwind.
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:Cause it was just like, so shocking.
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:But after that,
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:it was
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:just a long road of, like, because then,
right after that COVID came, so that was
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:like, my whole family was locked in a
house together, and we're all grieving in
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:different ways, and it's just If you've
ever dealt with like grief, you know
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:that people deal with it so differently.
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:I kind of felt like the
backbone of the family.
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:My dad was super strong.
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:He compartmentalized very well,
and my brother, who was in the
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:military at the time, he's now home.
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:But he
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:really
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:strong too, but it just was,
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:Jason English (Host): it
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:Grace Asbury: it was weird, like it was
a very, I don't even, And, like, you go
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:through these, such these big waves of,
like, happiness, and then you feel, like,
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:guilt, almost, for being happy, and it's
weird now, because my life is so different
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:than when that happened, you know, I have
a boyfriend that he never met, I live in a
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:state that he was never in, and It's just
so interesting and it's like my parents
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:don't live in the same house anymore they
used to live in and we've sold everything
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:that Sam was a part of so it's like
There's times where I like it hits me
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:Jason English (Host): like,
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:Grace Asbury: yeah, like all of that
happened And it's weird cuz you feel
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:this guilt of like, how could I just
like forget about this and you're like,
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:well, I didn't forget I'm just I'm in
a new life basically and it's I miss
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:him every day and He truly was the
funniest person I've ever had in my life.
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:He was like my best friend the
last six months of his life.
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:We went to games together, like,
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:together.
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:I
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:I loved having him around
and we were at UGA together.
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:But, it is just, it's just, I
think it just comes and goes.
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:I started crying the other day, it
just, my friend just texted me randomly.
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:And I was like, hey, I just
wanted to check in, I haven't
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:asked about this in a while.
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:How do you, and I'm big on
like, feel every single emotion.
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:Like I went, this might sound
interesting to some people, but
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:I, I went and like yelled at my
brother, like at his gravesite.
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:Because I was so mad.
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:Because to me, it's like, there is a
selfish side to suicide, but you also get
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:to this place of like, it's so horrible
that they get to that place, you know?
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:So, but like, I'm like, be angry, get mad.
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:Like, I did that and it helped so much.
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:And then it allowed me to like, get that
anger out, and then of course I was there
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:and I was like, I miss you, I love you.
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:But it's just, when I want to cry, I cry.
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:When I want to be
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:be
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:upset about something, I am, you
know, it's like, you can't, the more
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:you try to like box it in, you're
just going to implode one day.
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:Jason English (Host): So the
age difference with you and your
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:brothers, you guys are all pretty,
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:Grace Asbury: All pretty close.
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:We're all a year and a
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:Jason English (Host): Yeah.
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:So it's, yeah.
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:So I have a daughter and two sons.
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:She's the oldest, but they were all
a year and a half to two years apart.
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:So really, really tight.
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:Are you in, in your brother today?
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:How has that impacted your, your
relationship with your, your brother?
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:We were
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:Grace Asbury: all like
always pretty close.
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:We kind of went through the waves
of like, you know, the siblings.
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:I was the one they targeted, and
then it turned into we targeted Sam,
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:and then Sam and I targeted Ben.
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:So, it was like, that, but we,
as we got older and older, we all
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:just like, grew up a little bit.
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:But, um, I would def Ben was probably
my strong point when it all hit.
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:Cause he came home from the military,
and I, I didn't want to cry in front of
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:my parents, cause I was like, especially
my mom, cause I was like, she got the
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:brunt of it, and like, I, I can't be that
person, and my mom's been through so much.
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:She's the only one
standing from her immediate
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:Jason English (Host): family.
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:And like,
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:Grace Asbury: And like, now her son.
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:I was like, are you kidding me?
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:So, I didn't want to cry,
I didn't want to be upset.
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:But when Ben came home, and we picked
him up at the airport, I just like,
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:fell into his arms and started crying.
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:And he was really strong.
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:And he's very much of that like,
military kind of mindset He cried.
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:He's great in that way.
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:He feels things, but he's Very aware of
we have one life, like we can't just be
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:sad all the time, which is very true.
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:But um, so he was definitely the person
that I always leaned on, and I still do.
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:And we always, we called and talked to
each other a lot when I was in college.
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:But it's different.
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:We probably talk to each
other five times a week.
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:We're very like, Oh, what?
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:I have nothing to do.
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:Oh, I'll call Ben.
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:And it's like, we're both really
talkative and like to talk to each other.
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:On my ride home, I'd probably
talk to him for an hour.
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:Um, so he just, yeah, it definitely
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:you.
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:I think it can kind of
do both a little bit.
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:I think in the beginning, it's very,
depending on how people grieve,
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:like me and you get in fights just
because like you are upset or you're
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:mad or little things like get to
you and some people are just numb.
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:Jason English (Host): Well,
trauma, trauma has so many
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:Grace Asbury: Yeah.
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:Jason English (Host): you know, it's all,
it's all unexpected, no matter what the,
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:what the root issue is, if it's, you know,
addiction or death or, or, or whatever.
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:Right.
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:So yeah, that's, yeah.
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:Uh, that, yeah, I can't imagine
what you guys went through on that.
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:How has that affected you
in the last few years?
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:Leaving UGA, starting this career
in music, I'm sure you said you
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:think about him all the time.
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:But in terms of songwriting and in
terms of when you're on stage and
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:performing, you know, what's the feeling?
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:Um,
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:Grace Asbury: it's interesting
actually, right before.
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:Like two months before Sam had passed,
he'd, I remember we were standing, it was
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:like before the SEC championship and we
were standing to go into Mercedes Benz.
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:Um, and I was like, yeah, I
mean, if I make it or like, if I
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:get to that point and he looked
right at me and just goes, if
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:Jason English (Host): cool.
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:Grace Asbury: Grace, like you're
going to make it, you're ridiculous.
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:And like, I hold that with
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:Jason English (Host): Hmm.
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:Grace Asbury: Cause it's just, I always,
whenever I started to doubt myself,
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:I'm like, no, and Sam's up there now.
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:And he's like my angel.
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:And he's got my back and just
keep your head down and work hard.
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:And so whenever I know, whenever I
get on stages and like the bigger
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:they tend to get, or like the
moments I get, I'm always like, have
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:a little like, thank you up there.
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:Just like, I know he's looking out for me.
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:He's watching.
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:It's just.
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:I know one day when I get to a point that
I wanted to get to, I'm, there's going to
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:be like a moment that I'm like, I did it,
and like, we did it, and it's just, it's
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:really, it's, it's interesting, you know,
I definitely believe God has a plan, and I
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:don't understand it, and no one does, but
um, he's He's up there watching over me.
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:There's a reason for this.
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:I'll see him again someday, but I know
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:get
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:on a stage, he's watching over me, and
he's with me every step of the way.
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:So, it's just that feeling that I
know I have my greatest angel up
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:Jason English (Host): Right.
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:Grace Asbury: Who has my
back, and hopefully he's
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:putting a good word in for me.
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:But,
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:Jason English (Host): good word
in for me, but It's stuff that
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:like He was like, obviously funny
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:Grace Asbury: oh, I mean,
it's stuff that like,
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:Jason English (Host): so improper
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:Grace Asbury: he was like, obviously funny
to everybody, but I'm trying to, like,
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:he was someone who was like, so improper.
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:And would say stuff that,
like, I probably can't say.
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:But, um, like, he would just do
stuff that, like, if you knew him,
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:you would He was just ridiculous.
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:Like, he would Like, we were
in Italy for some reason, you
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:know how they say, Arrivederci?
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:Like, that's their, like,
is that hello or goodbye?
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:I don't remember.
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:Um, but for some reason, he would
always just keep going, Areva Derici?
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:Areva Derici me?
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:And then you're just looking at
him like, what does that even mean?
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:Like,
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:Jason English (Host): movie?
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:Grace Asbury: but you're just like
staring at him like, We all just, if you
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:like knew him, you'd be dying laughing.
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:And he would always take little
lines from songs and like add them
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:into Like, just a conversation and
you'd be like, what's happening?
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:Like, it's like little rap songs and
just, he was, he was really funny and he
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:just, and he was an asshole, like, like
he was, he was, he could be so mean,
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:but it just was like just a brother.
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:But, um, he was so amazing
in the way of like, if I was
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:upset, he was the only person.
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:They could like cheer me up, and in the
funniest way, he would just be like,
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:He
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:he used to always make fun of
my voice too for some reason.
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:He'd act like I was way
more country than I am.
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:I would say something and he would
be like, I would, I'd be like, he
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:would say something, and then he would
mimic me in a really country accent.
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:And I'd go, I don't talk like that.
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:And he'd go, I don't talk like that.
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:And I was just like, and then he'd
always make this face of just like, and
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:like look at me, and it was just like.
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:But it was like, he could get under
your skin, but he knew how to cheer you
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:up, and one day I was having like a bad
day, and he ran up behind me and picked
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:me up, and he's like, gotta take out
the trash, and tried to like throw me
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:in a trash can, but it made me laugh.
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:He was just he was such a light
and it's just sad to think
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:that he didn't see that But
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:Jason English (Host): Well thanks for
sharing, I really appreciate that, so
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:in terms of dealing grief and then the
underlying things around mental health
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:how important is music do you think.
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:Not just you as a, as an artist and
a songwriter, but music in general,
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:whether, you know, you play, you
listen, how can music sort of help
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:people through those, those times?
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:I
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:Grace Asbury: I mean, I think music
is the most cathartic thing in this
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:world And if you really think about it,
somebody has said this to me before,
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:but if you took music out of our just
everyday life, if music didn't exist,
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:it'd be the weirdest experience ever.
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:Like if you, every TV show, every
movie, you're on an elevator, you're
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:at a sports game, you're just in your
car, like, it's just, if you took
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:music out of stuff, it'd feel so weird.
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:So it's just always in the background,
but then I think so many people I mean
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:That's why the biggest artists can do
what they do I mean you look at Taylor
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:Swift so many people think like feel that
they've lived her songs or they know her
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:or They help that have helped them through
things and I think that's like the biggest
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:gift that we have as songwriters is
being able to Do that for people because
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:I, I always tell people when they're
like, what do you want out of this?
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:Like I want to impact people in a way that
they feel they can listen to my music and
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:it did something to them, whether it made
them happy, whether it made them laugh or
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:just like made them cry their eyes out.
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:I think it's just such a powerful thing
and some people don't realize it But I'm
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:really lucky that I can write and put
like within Sam after he passed within
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:two weeks I wrote a song for him and
it was super super cathartic and I was
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:able to Get my feelings out and put them
down on paper, but it's nice, there's
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:people that have listened to that song
before, and like, it helps them, and it
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:got them to a place where they were like,
that like, did so much for me, and like,
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:I just lost my cousin, and she, like,
this song helped me through that, and
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:it's just, I think that's what it is.
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:Like we have the power to do and
that's what music does and that's
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:one thing I always like to remember
is like I don't i'm not in this to
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:just like be in the spotlight Like
i'm in this to impact people and I
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:believe god put me here for a reason
And this is my way that I get to make
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:way An impact on people's
lives and that way so
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:Jason English (Host): Good for you.
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:Well, I think, you know, obviously
Sam, uh, his passing is awful by
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:itself, but when you, like you said,
when you couple that with COVID
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:Grace Asbury: Yeah
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:Jason English (Host): and then
everything around that, and
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:you, you look back at that time.
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:And you just don't know what people are
going through, you know, and we all have,
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:we all have our ghosts, you know, whether
they're personal ghosts, family ghosts.
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:And can you imagine going through COVID,
uh, without music or, you know, the
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:situation that your family had to endure?
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:Whatever else people doing, you know,
it's just the, it's crazy that, you know,
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:just the, like you said, it's cathartic
and it's therapeutic and all the things.
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:And, uh, and I think like back to
songwriting, you said you have your,
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:your songs that you can sort of put on
paper to help you kind of process things.
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:Do you think anybody can be a songwriter?
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:You know,
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:Grace Asbury: I think journaling is, I
think it's a special gift to be able to
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:put things in the melody and build a song.
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:But I think anybody can put their
words on paper and it can be cathartic.
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:Because I have friends, I mean, I have one
best friend, she can never write a song,
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:but she can journal like nobody else.
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:Like, she, because I definitely
wouldn't say, I mean, that's not fair.
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:Anyone could write a song,
it just might not be.
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:just might
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:You're calling, but, um, but I think,
I think journaling is like one of
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:the most powerful things you can do.
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:And just like, even just like
writing down, I'm really big
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:every morning and just writing
three things I'm grateful for.
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:Jason English (Host): of like a song.
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:Can you share what
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:Grace Asbury: for today?
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:What did I say this morning?
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:I'm grateful, I had like cute ones.
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:I was grateful for my dog because
I love being able to wake up to
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:such a happy face every morning.
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:It's like I'm so blessed to wake
up and I have this dog who's like
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:so excited to see me every morning.
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:And that was my first thing.
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:The second thing was my dad.
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:He is my number one
supporter, my number one fan.
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:We can butt heads.
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:We're very similar, but I know
at the end of the day he wants.
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:Nothing but the best for me.
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:And he truly is my number one fan.
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:Um, and the third thing, was my mom.
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:She will pick up the
phone anytime I call her.
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:And she is always my
first call in the morning.
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:No matter what.
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:Hey mom, what you doing?
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:It can be a two minute call,
but she's always my first call.
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:So those are my three things this morning.
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:I just I always have a different one
every morning, but it's just, I was just,
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:my dog was really excited to see me this
morning, and I was like, you know what?
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:That was fun.
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:Like, he was running around the house
and sprinting, and I was like, just
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:in a happy, good mood because of that.
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:So, which I think we take for
granted sometimes, how amazing
743
:animals are in our life.
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:Because I grew up riding horses
too, and that was also a very like,
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:cathartic thing, just to be able to
like, get on an animal and have a
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:bond, and it's just very amazing.
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:But, I think it's good to reset
your mind each morning and just
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:be like, what am I grateful for
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:Jason English (Host): Yeah.
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:Well, how, I mean, how fortunate are you?
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:Cause I know, I mean, I've heard, and
I know a lot of people that female
752
:growing up, the whole daughter father
relationship was, Either not there or
753
:it was just completely dysfunctional.
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:You know how fortunate you are to have
a dad that's your number one champion.
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:Grace Asbury: I can't imagine, you know,
I'm, I'm extremely blessed to have not
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:only a dad, but like a family that's
so supportive, but my dad is truly.
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:Like, invested to the point where
sometimes you want to just, like,
758
:grab him and shake him and tell him to
leave him alone, but it's just, it is
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:amazing and he would do anything for me.
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:Jason English (Host): I
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:Grace Asbury: I always come back to it
whenever we get in fights or arguments.
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:Or I'm frustrated about his thoughts
about my music or something.
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:I always come back to like,
you know, all he wants for me.
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:He almost wants me to
succeed more than I do.
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:He doesn't, but he's right there with me.
766
:So it's just, I always come back to that.
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:Like he, looking out for
me, wants the best for me.
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:Jason English (Host): do a lot worse.
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:Grace Asbury: Yeah, yeah, trust me.
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:Jason English (Host):
yeah, that's awesome.
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:So just real quick, in the rest of
the year, you mentioned the reset.
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:I think you said before we
started talking, a single will
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:be coming out every couple months.
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:Is that what people can expect
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:Grace Asbury: Yes.
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:So my, not my first single, but my
first single for this year comes
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:out next Wednesday, February 21st.
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:Honest Man is the title.
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:Very excited about that song.
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:And then following, we don't have a set
date yet, but I know in April, my next
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:single called Slowdown Child will follow.
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:And then every five to six
weeks, we'll have a single.
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:So you can look out for
four singles this year.
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:With a, possibly a Christmas song, and
then if things keep rolling in a great
785
:way, then an album should be following
at some point, but that is our plan
786
:for now, so I'm excited about it.
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:Got a lot of good stuff in the works, so,
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:Jason English (Host): Well,
thank you for your time.
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:Grace Asbury: thank you so
much for having me, it's fun.
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:Jason English (Host): Uh, we're grateful
for your music and, uh, best of luck.
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:Could you play some music for us?
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:Grace Asbury: I would love to, yeah,
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:Jason English (Host): Thanks so
much for joining us for another
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:episode of Curious Goldfish.
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:Please follow and subscribe to
the podcast and on social media.
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:Also, tell your music
loving friends about us too.
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:Until next time, stay curious.